Monica Lewinsky was the headline from newly accessed writings of a Hillary Clinton confidant, but a closer look at Diane Blair's private notes reveal other personal struggles and frustrations.
These include how the former first lady coped with severe back pain from wearing heels and her belief that no one in her husband's early White House, as Blair's notes indicate, was "tough and mean enough."
With Clinton's world now tightly controlled ahead of another possible presidential run, such reflections open yet another anecdotal window into her years at the White House through most of the 1990s and give the public views of her thoughts on politics and leadership.
Blair, a former political science professor who worked on Bill Clinton's presidential campaigns, died in 2000. Her husband donated more than a hundred boxes of documents to the University of Arkansas that were not made public until 2010.
Based on the contents of 16 of those boxes, which focus on the Clintons, Blair was a prolific note-taker and kept clippings on much of the Clintons' political life. The contents vary from notes Blair jotted down about her conversations with the Clintons to countless pages of talking points from Bill Clinton's two presidential campaigns.
Outside of confirmation from Mrs. Clinton, there is no way to independently confirm the accuracy of Blair's specific recollections and direct quotations. A spokesman for Clinton did not respond to CNN inquiries.
Here are a few interesting nuggets we've read so far:
Not interested in "backstage manipulation" or "phony makeovers"
Blair notes that in a conversation around Thanksgiving of 1996, Hillary Clinton talked about her frustration with the press and what they thought should be her role as first lady.
"She thinks press complete hypocrites," Blair writes, adding that Clinton said the media prefers the more dramatic "backstage manipulation" of former first ladies, naming Barbara Bush, Nancy Reagan, Bess Truman, and Rosalynn Carter as examples.
"It's the honesty of their partnership that's driving (the press) nuts and making her a target," Blair writes. "On her death bed, wants to be able to say she was true to herself and is not going to do phony makeovers to please others."
In the same conversation, Clinton concluded that no matter what she does, it's "going to piss off some people, so (she'll) just continue to be herself," Blair writes.
"I'm not stupid; I know I should do more to suck up to the press, I know it confuses people when I change my hairdos," Blair quotes Clinton as saying. "I know I should pretend not to have any opinions--but I'm just not going to. I'm used to winning and I intend to win on my own terms. I know how to compromise, I have compromised, I gave up my name, got contact lenses, but I'm not going to try to pretend to be somebody that I'm not."
Freed from high heels
In late December 1998, around the time the House impeached Bill Clinton, Hillary Clinton spoke with Blair about some acute back problems she's been having---"a dislocated sacroiliac, caused or precipitated by wearing high heels."
Blair writes that Hillary Clinton tried to keep it quiet but worried about the public perception of "hiding out."
"Really she didn't want people to know her vanity," Blair writes. "She looked great in these shoes, wore them, threw out her back, exercised, got better -- and then wore the shoes again, and this time the pain was the 'worse ever.'"
Blair goes on to recount a story that Clinton later wrote about in her 2003 memoir, "Living History."
One of the White House physicians who examined me called in a physical therapist from the Navy. After the Navy therapist examined me, he asked, "Ma'am, have you been wearing high heels a lot lately?"
"Ma'am," he said, "you shouldn't wear high heels again."
"Well, yes, never." He looked at me curiously, and asked, "With all due respect, ma'am, why would you want to?"
In Blair's telling of the episode, Blair writes that Hillary Clinton referred to that physical therapist as "darling." It appears she heeded his advice, as she's become known for wearing low pumps.
Clinton's view of the press: big egos and no brains